Deleting my Pinterest Wedding Board

Hey guys,

So this post is going to be more of a journal type blog post! So I recently decided to completely delete my wedding board on Pinterest! That's right 1,200 pins and everything idea that I thought was cute probably back from 2012! The colors I wanted, the theme, dresses, floral designs, invitations. Basically you name it and it was on there. And no this doesn't mean that my boyfriend and I have broken up, we're still good! But my reasoning behind deleting is because I want a clean slate. When I created my Pinterest account back in 2012, this was probably my first board. I wasn't dating anyone, I had just graduated from high school and was starting college. My plans were to stay single throughout all of college and then once I was a little more settled to see what happened with life! And that's pretty much what I did. I graduated from college, bought a house with my sister, got a job, and met my boyfriend about a year later! Well we technically had met before but we didn't really get together until later! 

Creating a wedding board is great and all if you're with someone and you're able to talk about everything with them. However, all of the ideas that I had in my board were exactly that, they were my ideas. They weren't our ideas. They weren't what we had agreed upon and when you're with someone that's not what it's about. It's about getting to pick things out together and deciding how you want things to go. Unless you have a boyfriend/fiancé that could careless then I guess go ahead and plan by yourself! 

Planning is something I'm really into and one of the reasons that I decided to delete it is because I wanted a clean slate. I'm kind of a control freak and I have a lot of anxiety so when something isn't perfect or going my way, I tend to overreact or freak out. It's something I've struggled with my whole life. My mom was telling me this story that I had never heard before but apparently one Christmas I had told her about a doll house to buy me and I guess she had bought me the wrong one and so I basically told her how much she sucked and how she ruined Christmas because of this. Granted now that I'm older and can handle myself a little better, I would definitely never tell her that! I might still think it haha but I would never let her feel bad for getting me the wrong thing. Or at least I would try not to!

But as my boyfriend and I get more serious, I want for us to someday be able to plan things together and come up with ideas as partners. I want for us to pick out colors, invitations, flowers, and all of the necessary things it takes to put on a wedding. I want us to agree on how the wedding should go and what should be done at the wedding. I want everything to be something we decide, except you know the obvious things such as my dress and stuff like that! But everything should be something we want!

I hope you enjoyed this kind of weird post haha! But I thought it was an interesting idea to talk about. But I really need to get more into the fashion side of this blog because I really miss it! 

Thanks for stopping by!

XO, Steph